Life is Good

It's nearly 2 months since I 'd made one of my big decision in my life, which was to become a full-time mom. So far, I have been through many memorable moments. I once feel a huge euphoria, waking up in the morning without nothing to worry about. No more long-boring-meetings, no more deadlines, no more annoying arguments, no more trapped in a traffic jam, then and there. could be that great, indeed.

But, on the other hand, I am also familiar with certain questions, such as:"How are things going with you?", "You miss the office stuff, don't you?", "You're sorry leaving your job, aren't you?", it will go on and on. Every time I come across my ex-colleagues, my yoga friends, my college friends, etc, most of them always keep acting this way, at first feeling surprised when they heard that after being a career woman for 14 years, I finally resigned from my job, then continued with a big WHY I left my job, then a bigger WHY when I said I want to become a stay-at-home-mom, then end up with their own conclusions that I will feel bored at home and will eventually feel sorry for my decision. Why....oh why, people love to judge, sometimes (or very often) they think that their opinions are the best. Is it so difficult to respect other people choice? I remember a wise saying exclaims that if you can't say something nice, just keep silent.

While the truth is as I mentioned in the first paragraph, I am sure that this is the best decision I ever made. I have never felt this happy before. This peaceful feeling can't lie. Happiness spreads all over me and influences my surrounding. My girls are the best supporters. They're happy to see their mom around.

But this euphoria could also lead to a scary moment. When I decided to leave my job, I have many projects in my mind to be realized. I plan to work from home. Doing the translation, reviewing and drafting, etc, from home. I never realize that working from home means I have no boss who will supervise me and instruct me this and that. I am the one who decides when to finish it. For a moment I find difficulties to adapt with these new things. I become a procrastinator. Postponing everything since I'm easily distracted by many things *excuses*. I am lack of self discipline. It turns out that it's very hard to be a discipline person when you need to manage yourself. Easy to say but it's hard to act.

I thank God, I realize it just now that I need to manage my time properly. Now, I try to get my self discipline bit by bit. I begin to rearrange my projects one by one and hopefully can realize it very soon. I just want to say that life is good, never better, and enjoy it a lot, hope you all do the same.


'IcHa' May 26, 2010 at 4:16 PM  

aku iriiiiiiiiii.... :P btw, aku mepet2 deadline setiap saat setiap waktu mba.. hehe

riana May 27, 2010 at 5:00 AM  

@Icha: Ah...kalo buat Icha yg masih muda belia segar ceria *lebay* wajarlah setiap saat ketemu deadline, itu yg bikin hidup lebih hidup, ya kan?....:)

sikiky May 28, 2010 at 11:39 AM  

sadly but true....banyak orang ambisi jadi Tuhan,,,makany ngerasa bener sendiri..

riana May 29, 2010 at 10:24 AM  

@kiky: yep...paling mudah memang menilai orang lain, kalo menilai diri sendiri susah benerrrr.....:)

uwien June 1, 2010 at 3:53 PM  

whahahaha harusnya bu tjut bangga, org2 itu sebenarnya kepingin kayak dirimu tp ga berani, makanya nanya2 mulu utk mencari pembenaran atas ketdkmampuan mereka. Aku cuma mo nanya gmn kabar anak2mu yg lucu hehehe

ratih June 2, 2010 at 12:58 AM  

been there mbak, haha..

They just don't know how wonderful life we have now ;)

riana June 2, 2010 at 11:08 AM  

@wien: apa kabar jeng? miss you a lot...najla zea sehat2, makin manja krn mama sering di rumah, hehe...thx for the supportive comment anyway....

@mb ratih: iya mbak, mereka blm pernah coba & tdk berani mencoba, how poor they are..:)

uwien June 2, 2010 at 1:34 PM  

baik bu tjut, msh tetap dg mimpi jln2. Belum berkarya lg nich jd tetep punya hutang dech hihihi. Kangen dengan cerita2 lucu anak2mu. Smg kalian sehat2 & happy selalu yach muah5x

riana June 7, 2010 at 6:59 AM  

@uwien: Tengkiu jeng, aku masih tetap menantikan kehadiran blog mu dg foto2 & traveling storiesnya...:)